You're alright you're alright.

The end of a long day at the end of a very long week.  I got lost coming up the mountain in my rental SUV.  There were no trespassing signs all over all the trees.

My car crashed Monday night in to the guard rail.  Then I skidded back out on to the freeway and 180'd on the first-rain oil-slick hydroplane of road til I was facing oncoming traffic. I was knocked out for just a sec but some part louder in me than my regular head woke me up by screaming at me you're alright you're alright cmon so I moved out of the way in time.  I have never been so scared and also, now I have no home. 

It's been a long exhausting week.  It is fall on the mountain, dorm-living again.  I am thankful for woodstoves, warm meals amazing bosses and my funny, peaceful and deep new friends.

I miss my mom and dad.  And brother and sister-in-law, my baby new niece, my cousins and friends.

In the deep place tonight next to the redwoods by the stream I prayed to the earth bc that's the only thing I really pray to that listens, afterall.  It said husshhhh, hussshhhhh. So I remembered, be still.  There is no place to be but where you're at.  Which frees up the energy for all else to come about as it will.