In my swim suit with my wild ocean hair

On the 5 today I looked at the coastal mountains around Toro Canyon.  I call it Route 5 and pronounce it "root" like I'm from back east.  Which I am.  Derryn makes fun of me because that's how she says it too, like she's a British African.  Which she is.  I love my life there is nothing else to say and driving and seeing all the green and high white light and blue that's exactly what I said.  Man I love my life.  I must've said it ten times this weekend.  Moving here is one of the best decisions I ever made. I say this in to my headphone piece.  Driving on root 5 on the phone.  I know me too Muller says back to me.  Me too.

He is going back to Ocean City where we are from.  He goes next week.  He tells me all these guys from back then say hi Kel and I am like that's so crazy.  Because that's what I sit and do write about the beach and entertain their ghosts while I do.   I can not see the end of from here how will I ever finish this book who knows but damn am I enjoying the road.  I got three rejections letters this month.  BLAUAUAGHH I continue and will continue to go.  I am in Starbucks now after spending the weekend at Derryn's timeshare in Oceanside.  Assing up with her puberty-aged sons.  Laughing at Youtube videos they recommend.  Seeing how viley immature I am and my sense of humor.  Muller knows this part of me too.  I am sundrenched and peaceful from being sea-witness again and again.  I am full from sharing with a true wild woman friend.  I am full and satiated in that salty way of sand stretch skin.  I am happy especially to be beside my coffee shop window two blocks from my house in Huntington.  I haven't been home yet am still in my swim suit with my wild ocean hair.  I love my life the sun the blue skies the words the yoga bike rides the water good food and laughing friends.  It doesn't end.  

I am enjoying looking out the window you know?  Nodding my head at this life and this ride.  I've made a decision about some things ruminating in me which have to do with how to commit and how to begin.  I am 35 which is old to some but to me brand brand new, or anyway quite young.  I have the whole world in me and also around me and I see it and say yes to it and that is an amazingly fruitful way to be.  One I've had to learn and learn and relearn again.  I like to learn and am a teacher which means learning's my job.  So I will look out and say yes this is it where I am and also how cool, the view stretching so far in all directions, the view and all the where's and how's I still will go.