Showing posts with label My Second Coming looks faithless and pure as screaming dreaming writing feeding and grinning really loud. Show all posts
Showing posts with label My Second Coming looks faithless and pure as screaming dreaming writing feeding and grinning really loud. Show all posts

March 12, 2010

Support INDY Art


The Spring Standards


Po'Girl


I was overhearing a convo at the counter at the coffee shop last night and of course had to butt in.

K Records? I asked the dude. You know about K Records?

His eyes lit up and he's like yea I'm a total music nerd I nerd out to stuff like that. Of course now we are talking about 80's indy and riot grrrl music Bikini Kill and Bratmobile, Heavens to Betsy. That all shaped my sensibility, like pointed me to who I am at such an important time I say to him and all the twinkly lights are on inside me the way only the twinkly lights come on when I talk about indy art and riot grl and loud stuff and power to the ppl hand to hand doing it ourself.
I am blogging while we're talking so the convo gos on in bits and pieces. He asks me who I like now I say Dude. I was out of the scene a long time. But the last year, year and a half I am totally into obscure stuff, stuff that I find on the internet. Unsigned. I mean I like a ton of music that's popular but you know, myspace art. That's definitely what I care the most about.

Two weeks ago I saw Po'Girl at Night Cat and in the break talked to one of the members, Awna, for a while. We were both jazzed: their new album was produced entirely by advance sales from their mailing list. The band offered handmade covers for the first 200 sold, and that is how they made the money for the new release they were touring behind. They were signed before, they chose to leave their label, to go indy. Last night The Spring Standard happily announced that they did the same thing with the album they are about to release--presales paid for the full production. It was clear how proud they were to be doing it themselves. I hooped and yahood from the front row I was the only one clapping at first, but whatev most the crowd was middleaged meaning only that perhaps they're a bit set in their ways? I am so amped about this real and legitimate movement in art right now--it too extends in to writing and the lit arts, to poetry and of course self-produced zines and chapbooks. In general, social media is empowering us for the first time ever to successfully and effectively reach audiences in ways we've never been able before. And as anyone who understands culture, sociology, tribe shamanism or magic will tell you--what happens on the periphery edge, what happens on the outside, is actually the first indicator and direction of the tide from within. In other words, the edge of things in art or any ppl-based movement is the true direction.

YES!

Right now I am laughing, I got my eyes worked over at my doctor who is the most competent peeper peeker I know, but she lives in Elkton, which is like so far east of Baltimore it's kinda considered the Eastern Shore and so far north of Kent County it's considered "over there", as in the other side=the other side of the Chesapeake Bay. Ppl on the shore talk of the other side with pariah grimacing. My eye doctor dilated me and then sent me off driving down 95 in the grey wall of mistrain and my trippy no short term vision softeyes. Now I am all the way all the way from there in Annapolis, where I drove literally to buy my cousin some pie from the Amish Market and it's funny to me bc visual reality is still a little teeny bendy from the dilation. Despite my tripeyes and the rain, this is the first time I've been "over here" since I quit my job last Friday--since I told them the only thing keeping me there on the shore, the only thing is my job and for two years I tried to make that enough, but it's not--and I am so, so happy! Needless to say end of summer after a moneymaking quikie down the beach I am hella hyped to move back "over here."
Support the indy art movement people!! and uhhh, btw?

I AM STOKED.

September 4, 2009

SAVED

Todo lo puedo en Christo says the tag on the back of the old Chevy beater with the barely there bumper straggling like its trying to catch up to the rest of the car. This is my favorite backroad in Caroline County, the one where the poetry comes through me most clearly, the one where the slaves call at me from the old Quaker homes and the marshy woods, the one that made me realize that whichever came first: human's delineation of the political boundaries of a land; or the land urging humans to delineate it first--regardless, places have a song, a Call all their own, a personality unique to the crying of its birds the moaning of its streets or how its trees find ease to sway.

I look at that bumber sticker and wonder if I know the Latinos inside that busted car. Then I think how merciless it looks, again and again, when I've been saved.

And then that's it, and the poetry's here...

And the song itself comes through me and out all busted, too, disjointed kind of like my latest dreams. Lines about Hondurans, their high, round cheeks and eyes deeper and darker then all the other countrysides and too their very light skin. Followed at once by the way the trees look early in the morning in the fading summer light, the green that changes on the bow how if your still, you know the slanted up way it has right now is because the light is actually coming from within... Or the wisteria, still glowing, but how she like a old sad lady surveying her faded skirts, is looking down...
Then Charlie, who's been dead almost a year, is speaking to me he is saying over and over again Lord make me an instrument of your peace and these are the same backroads I drove that night that I got the news about him. And what would happen if I pulled over the car of Spanish dudes and said, I'm it!! And so are you!! Christos esta aqui, conmio conmio and con ustedes, too!! Holding my heart, on the green backroads with the light green slant of trees and the long, long shadows on the other side. O! Mi Corazon!






Then I think how twice this week I've dreamt about her, the old friend that was most close to me all the way back then, the one I haven't spoken to or with in so long. And it clicks, how it used to trouble me when she'd show up in my dreams like that and make me want to scream, but that now it is good medicine. For there is nothing to figure out in her Second, Third or Fortieth Coming, other than Life, the thankless and the unanswerable, the humble sweep of the great fine hand. The way she sings deep in the utter boundless landscape of me of proof that I, that she, that Life will always be. And that's it, and that is all: certain backroads are where her bones lay and they feed the meat and juice of the land, and of all things that spring forward from those places to sing.
And this gave me peace because with others, too, that is how it shall be...
No more mantles for the myths of their flame
Only a graveyard, with a live ghost singing
& much as we are our ghosts
we are our friends


After that dream of her I dreamt of Cades and Walsh. They'd just gotten in after a long time of travelling and were tired, but ready and dancing behind their eyes was the simple clean need for some fun. I rushed to the kitchen and prepared a thoughtful stack of candied treats for them, and they took them, ate them, savored them, one by one, of a plate at my hands.


And then I think of Facebook, and how in the beginning all I ever did was look again and again at the wall and information about me. And what a narcissist I am and how that makes me laugh and grin most deliciously at me. And how hard it is to try to fake it that somehow that's not true. Walking up the sidewalk to the Family Support Center in Caroline County, the last of the words came through...
































And if you dont get it I'm not going to bother to explain
to you words or poems make no more difference
than the rain