I've always avoided you before. My muscles would start to clench before I even got out the door, my body on frigid lock-down against the cold. Shivers would start the second I felt the air. I guess I just figured if I squinched my eyes tight enough I could somehow will the weather away.
I dreamt of a hispanic man it was weeks ago he was short like most my favorite hispanics are. He was helping me my mom and dad remodel the house I lived in and he took me aside and said you know you are a mole, this is your medicine. I looked at him and said thanks, I looked really deep at him so he'd get I meant it. Then I took his pretty hispanic girl to my side and hugged her til her heart was well again which I did by looking third eye to eye. I didn't know her heart was bad but in my dream I felt it as soon as by my eye to eye hug it was made well. This I did for him as thanks, then I walked back to him and said please come to me when I am not asleep and remind me of this mole medicine. I woke and not long after remembered that dream and mole medicine is intimately connected to the earth and really needs fresh air. We know the truth before it ever is seen...
So now winter, whatcha gone do? I relish you, I go to the ocean or the woods everyday now and I walk and I breathe. I dont shiver, I am awake. In the morning when I open the shop as soon as everything is ready I step down on to the docks and I breathe the fresh air. Good morning, I say. Good morning, I love you. And winter there's where you're a show off, if you were a man I'd a left you a long time ago for that song and dance so dazzling it's almost boring, so old. Trying always to impress me like that. How you poke your light through the grey shadows or flurries of snow. How you wash the river with so much longing it is all I can do to not dive in. I guess I am lying, huh? Because show off as you are you still get me, everytime.
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